bascuse_me

bascuse_me @ 2006-11-01T22:15:00

2006-11-02T03:15:48Z

i'm too scared to do what i want to do because i'm already so set in something else and afraid of what other people would think. i'm never going to have fun or be happy. i think of so many things to send into post secret but i never have time or feel they are important enough to actually send.

bascuse_me @ 2006-10-08T23:26:00

2006-10-09T04:26:31Z

taken from postsecret...

bascuse_me @ 2006-09-13T22:26:00

2006-09-14T03:27:04Z

I wish I could make you see how bad you make me feel all the time. I know you don't mean to make me feel like crap.

squirrel

2006-09-14T02:17:23Z

Look what I found!

feeling

2006-09-08T04:15:09Z

feeling unwanted and unneeded is a bad feeling.

checkout

2006-08-27T06:12:14Z

so we were at the apple store in woodfield today (mark and i) and mark noticed some guy who he said was on real world. well... he wasn't. turns out we think he was shane landrum from real world. i got a mighty mouse. it's amazing. it clicks everywhere!

independance

2006-08-07T05:01:41Z

some people want to be independant and do things for themselves... by themselves.

other people just want someone who will do everything with them and not leave them all alone.

mistake

2006-08-06T05:20:05Z

Hitler just picked the wrong race. If i had been his best friend, I would have set him straight.

miss

2006-07-31T04:51:50Z

I would give anything to have some of the things people take for granted so much. Sometimes, I just want to relate to other people. I want to get inside their thought processes to see how they deal with things and why they act the way they do. I don't have certain feelings and certain things just don't happen to me so I'm unexperienced and would like to see how it is for other people.

night listener

2006-07-29T04:06:22Z

i have absolutely nothing to do. not one thing. no, i'm not tired. of course i'm not tired. i've done nothing all day long. oh well.

icknorati

2006-07-25T05:48:26Z

i don't feel normal like i see other people. i feel like i don't fit in. i've been told that i fit in just fine, but i don't have the interesting back stories. i can make myself appear to belong but it doesn't ever feel right. so many people around me know so much more and have experience more than i ever had the chance to. i know how i'm looked at. i don't have the stories or the friends. i don't act the same way and i don't have the same instincts. i have morals that other people consider odd. i know. i just want to fit in. i've changed so much and it still isn't enough. sometimes, i just want to run away but all the MANY chances i've had, i've never taken them. something's always been in the way. so many people frustrate me. so many things stay stuck in my mind that i don't want to think about and i know seem unreasonable. i just wish things were different. i miss so much the very small time i spent elsewhere, where it was similar to all of you. i could have related, i could have been a part of something that i feel so detached from. if i had stayed there, i may not have met all of you. i may not have met You. i'm glad i did, but if i hadn't, would i have even known? i've always felt like i wanted to go home. i've tried so many places and tried to make them feel like home and they just haven't. ;i don't think i'll ever find my home.

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the idea of divorce doesn't seem that bad.. two people enter a marriage but then after many years they decide it isn't working out and society has given them an easy alternative. they can just divorce and seek other, happier relationships. its splashed across the media. everyone gets a divorce. more than half of all marriages end in divorce so the couples can separately seek happier lives. we see celebrities get married, separated, divorced, back together, remarried, separated, divorced, married to other people and the endless cycle continues. most of my close friends still have parents that love each other and are still together. i've seen it first hand. their moms and dads make flirty jokes towards one another and spend time with one another and really know what's going on. i feel like the starved third-world child who has to watch some fat person eat cake. i'll never have the cake and won't die from being without it but still feel like my life isn't complete without it. and i just watch so many other people with their cake. its wrong to be jealous. the media makes it seem like not a big deal, but they don't take into account all of the me's there are. all of the people who are affected. its just hard to deal with.

smile

2006-07-22T22:31:33Z

my big sunglasses block what i don't want others to see

Three Happy People

2006-07-19T22:57:14Z

ii

2006-07-12T02:25:34Z

I don't know why it upsets me so much. It just does. I'll try and get over it. :(

Independance Day

2006-07-04T03:49:49Z

Happy 4th of July!!!

Hooray for friends, seeing all your family, eating outside, bar-b-ques, swimming, fireworks, parties, and loads of fun!!

maybe someday i'll get to have all that.

tourism

2006-07-02T13:58:18Z

Welcome to Chicago!

Have you seen our MOOSE?

We like things anatomically correct here in the Midwest.

opportunities

2006-06-30T08:39:21Z

I've been thinking about you a lot. I usually do. I get jealous of all the things you've done and the people you've done them with. But, I thought about it more and if I had taken more chances and started earlier I probably would have done more things too so I don't blame you for what you've done. I'm a jealous person and I don't like that.

weather

2006-06-28T14:54:47Z

I was watching Live with Regis and Kelly today like I often do and I realized something. I noticed the look in the guest's face as Regis was talking to him and I realized that if I ever went on that show, I would be utterly terrified of Regis. So scared I wouldn't be able to speak.

time spent

2006-06-27T05:25:18Z

What do you do when you make plans with that boy and then he cancels? You go to the Yo-Yo Ma concert with Brian in Millinnium Park instead.

hopeful

2006-06-26T18:57:52Z

I guess I should know by now not to get my hopes up. You don't want to see me.

employee of the month

2006-06-26T12:25:11Z

why do i feel this way before going to see you? i want to see you. why does it feel like i am sick. i should be happy.

i've got my gucci bag

2006-06-24T03:46:54Z

In my new gucci bag i put an ascot, a burberry bugle, a cat, a drifter's album, enlightenment, a frosty, God almighty, the Harlem globetrotters, an internet router, jeremy fisher, a karen o bob haircut,a limbo pole, mickey rooney, a nigger, an old racist man, pine cones, a quailman action figure doll, raunchy brand condoms, a saucepan,tickets to the tyra banks show, a unicorn tshirt, a voluptuous virgin, waldo, a xylophone, yarn, and a zebra.

7

2006-06-19T04:58:45Z

this must be nice to have

disappointment

2006-06-18T06:59:28Z

Today was not a good day. Yesterday was a really nice day that I enjoyed....up until it got close to today starting and then something didn't happen and then today started and I went to sleep. Then, I woke up to a bad day. To me, the day starts early and goes 'til late. I waited all day...until 4... but I was hoping for a more noonish time.... so that was one disappointment... others followed... I didnt get what I wanted which was my fault but... anyways...

not a good day. oh well.

eddie

2006-06-14T18:38:10Z

this is my favourite poem:

annabelle lee by edgar allan poe

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;

And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea
But we loved with a love that was more than love -
I and my Annabel Lee;

With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;

So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulcher
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me

Yes! that was the reason
(as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we
Of many far wiser than we

And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
In the sepulcher there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.